Hewo, Hewo. It's me again. I've just been having random thought lately, creepy fetishes, sexy fetishes, things that pop into my head. Like Jesse McCartney, in his new video "Shake". HOLY SHEET! He's hot sex.<33 I don't know, he's dark hair is so cute. I also fidn it attractive the suit he was wearing. EVEN if he was objectifying women in that video, MAN, he was hot. I swear his new song is my new fettish. His face makes me blush a little.
Next up, would be my waxing skin fettish. Lately, I've been touching hot wax. It's kind of enjoyable. =3 It doesn't burn, but I do have this wonderful sensation when it falls on me. I love touching it with my finger tips. I think it burned off some of my finger prints though. They should grow back soon.
Since it's the holidays, my family depends on me to do everything since I don't work. -_- eff that. I have school work to do too. I still do all the work they ask from me, even more. So, The holidays makes me depressed since I can't do anything right according to them. (sheet, mom's calling) I get hit & bet, even though I'm liek fecking 16, going on 17. It's because I'm small and weak. The rest of my family has atleast 30 pounds on me. Well, getting off tract there. I've been trying to cut once again, BUT, it's really weird, no matter how hard I try, the skin won't brake. I feel the pain, but it won't brake. I don't do the whole wrist slitting, I cut above the pelvic area. Nobody would ever check there. Still wonder why it won't brake though. SO weird. ...WHAT DUH HEW! This chunk of my eyebrow is missing. T__T Just shows how much one hair can make a differnce. It fell off yestarday. I feel like eating, but their isn't any food. My family ALWAYS eats all of it before I wake up. -_- Such D-Bags.
OHH, that dream yestarday still seems to be running in my head. I've had it before, but I never remember anything besides the faces. I keep on having it. It's like a horror movie you get addicted to, but I don't want to be the star, feeling everything. Every morning I seem to wake up panting or crying. It's been happening for a while. About a week. I end up scratching like crazy at the inside of my elbow ( I do that when I'm nervous).
Now if you don't mind me cutting it short, I feel like eating all the Lollipops I still have from Halloween.
5 comments:
Sooo sad T_T
Why don't I hug you? Those nightmares might just go away. lol
Ahh I'm just kidding with chu. Hehehehe. =D
XD What's so sad? I don't see anything sad.
Its like your in constant pain...it just seems so tragic.
I'm concerned about chu.
Thanks for the concern, but really who cares? I'm just another plastic bag floating in the atmosphere
If your a plastic bag then I'm the wind. I will always be with you and guide you.
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