Until we meet again

     "Until we meet again." he spoke out of those lips I just finished kissing. Jack came after school today, from co-op.. He said it was because he wanted to walk me home. It was sweet, but a little weird. Well, not weird, it was SOO sweet. I loved it, I love him. He said he ran to school to walk me home, I think I'm just not used to anyone doing so much for me. I hate seeing him do so much for me, but I love it considering it's so sweet.

   You knwo what I just thought of? Sex. Yeahh, sex.. I don't knwo why, I SWEAR I'M NOT HORNY! but like, yeahh, I thought of sex. I think it's from the song I've been listening to for the past three days. Peacock, by Katy Perry. (8) I wanna see your Peacock-cock-cock. Yeahh, or the otehr diry songs.. Well, you know what? I've always wondered how lezbians have sex, and I really don't wanna google it just incase I find porn. Lezbians remidn me of the time I thought I might have been Bisexual. I'm not. It's gross to think of it now. EXTREMELY, not that I'm homophobic, it's just I think it's creepy for ME or someone else of the same sex to LIKE ME. I also wonder how oppisite sex sex feels like. I heard it hurts for the first time and theres bleeding. Sure I have a boyfriend so I could TRY it out, but like I'm only sixteen, and I'm not sure if either of us is ready for that. It's only been like two weeks. The problem is, I really care about him and you know what I want to give him something that a past girlfriend has never given him. Oh well, I'll die if he sees this. I swear. I'd be SOO red, and I think I'd cry too. Honestly though, I can't help think of these things considering I've liked him for about two and a half years WITHOUT stopping. Also, the fact that I'm pretty sure home life isn't all that great for him I want to be the one who gives him something pleasing. I love him to bits. LMFAO, I guess I am horny. Man, I hope he doesn't see this. I want to just hop into his pants. LAWLZ.

       So you know what I hate? When you try SOO hard to care for someone, because caring for someone is loving the, and they just dump your friendship in the garbage. That pisses me off. Why do you do that? Well, it's because when growing up people realize the world has bitches and I guess they needed to become one... for some stupid reason. That's why I hate growing up. It's just a fecking thorn in your arse. I know there are people out there who feel the pain I'm in too. Lemme just say, find someone like me, and you'll live. EWW, that sounds so self centered. D=

All to Myself

        So here's another day I'll spend away from you. Take me with you, I'm starting to miss you. And youk now what? I don't need to read Billy Shakespeare. Meet Juliet or Benvolio. Your hot mess and I've fallen for you, Cause gawd damn you made me your boo. It's disgusting how much I love you.

      "just say to him CCD and I SHOULD BE DOING THOSE THINGS WITH YOU. NEVER WITH HIM"  He told me a few minutes ago.. I miss him, and his pervi words. Please just follow me, I thought you wanted me, cause I want you all to myself....

      Feck, my mom's such a beach, my sister told me my hair looks bad from all teh cutting I do to it, and now my mom's saynig that.. SHE NEVER SAID THAT UNTIL MY SISTER SAID THAT! You knwo what? I'm so past ticked off right now. It could be the sleeping problems I've been having affected my temper.. but no I guess I'll just be "moody". WHATEVER LIFE!

Suicide Saver?

    So a couple of days ago, my friend Qu, her father and uncle were drinking way too much. They were drunk, her dad was yelling, slamming doors, hitting on her. Totally understandable considering he was drunk. She got really scared and worried, slightly angry that something worse might happen. She called the cops. They came asking them all questions to see what happened. He never laid a hand on her, she was just scared of him. So days pass, she thanks me for being there when she needed someone, she goes to her cousin's to stay away from any family drama. Then today, maybe about ten minutes after I log on she messages me saying she needs to talk to me asap. Social working called her home. Her and her mom are scared that they'll be taken into a foster home. Their both so worried and I'm trying really hard to help her through all of this. She's my top priority of this moment. I rally jsut want everything to work out for her. Like I have things to complain abotu sure, but I need her to be safe before I can take care of myself right now. She can't be taken into a foster home. She regrets calling the police so much. She didn't do anything bad, she's just so overly worried about what might happen to her and her little brother. I want her to be okay, that's all. I don't want her to suicide or anything, is she's having thoughts?.. So did I save her from it?

Valentine's Special?

Feb 14th;; OHHMIIGAWD! He fecking asked me to be his girl today. <33 We have to plan out a date to go out though. Jacky's offically all mine, no other girl's. Loving that right now.

Feb 15th: He kisses me cheek. My heart basically exploded into millions of pieces. I'm so completely giddy. Lovely. He's so cute.

Feb 16: I told his ex-gf today about us. She was so into it. It was kind of funny. Appearantly he asked for advice from her about it. He kisses my cheeks alots. it's so cute. Love it. He's getting really attractive in my opinion.

Feb 17: I thought he had a trip but he didn't, I was SOO happy. He held me in the hallway to kiss my cheeks. I'm going to miss him so much when he goes away to co-op. You know, the thought of cops are kind of sex'd, including him. Makes him sexier. He's really attractive, prettiest asian boy at school. Loving him so much. His ex Alina had a rant abotu how bad her current boyfriend is. He's so good to me, I feel so much better having him. She's jealous of how much he changes and that I have him now. I'm so lucky.

Feb. 18: He had his co-op interview, hes' good to go.. He's gone offically on the 22 (ironic considering next entry). We went on a date to Chinatown. Dragon City and Downtown Center. He bought me a couple of small toys. It was sweet. Making sweet comments is what he does best. Lovely boyfriend he is. C: He's so lovely. When he said he wanted to make his body get tones, I drooled. His body with abs. Lovely.. We held hand on our date.  He's totally cute. Love him, but I'm going to miss him so much. Honestly. ): Wants me to comeover his house, met his family. I have his ring and bracelet as a promise, he'll comeback and be with me. Sounds like when the man is off to serve his country in a war.

 Feb 19: He sent 22 "Love you"s to me on an offline message. So thoughtful. It makes me sad he'll be gone soon.

Make-out Song

     I was so happy knowing he hadn't left school yet.. Now I know he is for sure leaving around the 20th. DAMN! He bought me those cute, but cheesey chocolate roses. I'm a little sick of this foreplay though.  I think it's sweet that he holds my hand even if we aren't together. Feels like kissing my head, I can feel the lips. He's been holding back on me way to long. Maybe I want his lips, holding out on me way to long. I jsut want a make-out song. If your going to leave school and act like taht with me, gawd damn it and kiss me. Like when I smile, magical unicorn rainbows come out and people tend to notice. So hurry up and kiss the girl already. I want my make-out song with you.  Tomorrow it's Valentine's day, so come on, lean in and kiss me. I can't wait forever.. but you are worth it. So I just might..

Beastly (;

       Second Semester has offically popped up for us. Sadly, this means a small fair well to my beloved. Well, just a guy I crush on. Tears spring upon my pale face, although in a way this is for the better. I'm sort of replacing him with soem of the most SEX'D celebs to me. This new movie Beastly* is coming out in March, with the most Drop Dead Beastiful Boy. (He'd make a great version of a real life Daniel from Fallen) His name is Alex Pettyfer. I truly swooned when I saw him. The moment I saw him, I was watching Argon (2006) in the Yorkdale Silvercity. I kind of drooled when I saw his face. When I saw him later on in my life, I was in the AMC Interchange 30 near Vaughn (2010) whiel I saw the commercials for I am number four and Beastly. I'm sixteen right now, and when I see something I like, I LIKE! He's what I like. ;3 He's Beastiful. One of the book I own, is Fallen. The moment I saw him after that, I saw him on the fan page of Fallen. I look like Luce the main character, from the side. Although, we have the same type of hair. I kept on making my own film of Fallen in my head starring Alex and I. His wonderful, long blonde hair. Man, what ever girl dumps him would have to be mental, totally mental.

  

        Now who's up next for the boys? Well Puck and Finn from Glee. Puck's bad boy sex god look is something ALOT of girls would kill for in a guy. I would, I know that. His tanned toned body is yummy. Finn is the beyond sweet sensitive jock who wants something he couldn't have. I wish he never got her either. He's too good for her. Hate her so much. Either one would please me. HE!HE!HE!HE! I'm such a mild perv. The fanfiction stories drive me wild too, just wishing I was in there place. Sadly, I couldn't be. But man, they are BEASTIFUL!

*Beastiful - Beastly and Beautiful in one. Not always Beastly in the outwards, but sometimes in emotions.

Tinked?

So heres the deal, I don't like meat. I have to eat it, but I don't like it. I don't like eatting the insides of animals even more, it makes me feel bad and scares me. I have to eat meat because I'm Anemic, it's the only source of Iron. I feel sick when I have Iron is my body.  It's bad for me, but it's just as bad for me NOT to have it in my body. If you read all of those pixie, faerie teen books, you'll think I'm a faeire. You know Iron sick, glittery, bruised around the eyes. Yep, sounds like me. I'm not a faerie. Althought sure does sound fun. (y) Maybe not the killing people part atleast, because everything else sounds wonderous. Want to join anyone? I'm betting I stopped someones hunt of a maybe pixie in there life, to distract them with this blog. Hey, for all we know,  I could be a pixie, faerie.