Until we meet again

     "Until we meet again." he spoke out of those lips I just finished kissing. Jack came after school today, from co-op.. He said it was because he wanted to walk me home. It was sweet, but a little weird. Well, not weird, it was SOO sweet. I loved it, I love him. He said he ran to school to walk me home, I think I'm just not used to anyone doing so much for me. I hate seeing him do so much for me, but I love it considering it's so sweet.

   You knwo what I just thought of? Sex. Yeahh, sex.. I don't knwo why, I SWEAR I'M NOT HORNY! but like, yeahh, I thought of sex. I think it's from the song I've been listening to for the past three days. Peacock, by Katy Perry. (8) I wanna see your Peacock-cock-cock. Yeahh, or the otehr diry songs.. Well, you know what? I've always wondered how lezbians have sex, and I really don't wanna google it just incase I find porn. Lezbians remidn me of the time I thought I might have been Bisexual. I'm not. It's gross to think of it now. EXTREMELY, not that I'm homophobic, it's just I think it's creepy for ME or someone else of the same sex to LIKE ME. I also wonder how oppisite sex sex feels like. I heard it hurts for the first time and theres bleeding. Sure I have a boyfriend so I could TRY it out, but like I'm only sixteen, and I'm not sure if either of us is ready for that. It's only been like two weeks. The problem is, I really care about him and you know what I want to give him something that a past girlfriend has never given him. Oh well, I'll die if he sees this. I swear. I'd be SOO red, and I think I'd cry too. Honestly though, I can't help think of these things considering I've liked him for about two and a half years WITHOUT stopping. Also, the fact that I'm pretty sure home life isn't all that great for him I want to be the one who gives him something pleasing. I love him to bits. LMFAO, I guess I am horny. Man, I hope he doesn't see this. I want to just hop into his pants. LAWLZ.

       So you know what I hate? When you try SOO hard to care for someone, because caring for someone is loving the, and they just dump your friendship in the garbage. That pisses me off. Why do you do that? Well, it's because when growing up people realize the world has bitches and I guess they needed to become one... for some stupid reason. That's why I hate growing up. It's just a fecking thorn in your arse. I know there are people out there who feel the pain I'm in too. Lemme just say, find someone like me, and you'll live. EWW, that sounds so self centered. D=