Fallen

                     What the fuck is wrong with me? Why can't I do anything right? Like all I want, is to try, try so hard to be perfect. But everytime I'm finally so close, I just fall back down. I am the fallen. There are times, when I do something wrong and I keep it all to myself instead. Other times, I just try so hard for everything to be okay, but I can't. I want to grab the sharpest thing is my path and stab it into my heart, into my chest. So I don't have to live, or care. Why am I so stupid? I want to punch so hard, that my knuckles bleed. I feel so disgusted by myself. The fact that I destroy, hurt and nothing else to everything around me kills me. Just let me be the fallen. I am due to be the fallen.