Cut and action

It's been five months since I've cut myself. Today, I will. I hurt so much. It's a week before exam week and I feel like I'm crumbling. I feel over weight and ugly. Stupid and annoying. My heart feels like its breaking, it honestly feels like pieces of it are breaking off. I hate myself. I figure, if I can be smart and have a nice body, everyone would love me. Maybe I can even love myself for one..