Two Months && eightt days..

                             I'm a horrible person. I may have not meant to hurt you the way I did, but it hurt to much to know I hurt you. Sobbing in my bed, hugging my knees to my chest. I'm guilty, always am. I am scared to screw us over. I'm evenly as scared to hurt you, more than anything. I think, I might love you a bit overly too much. I didn't mean to do what I did to you, but I'm so sorry I hurt you. You know I hate myself than I care what happened in your past. I'm hurting myself, more than you know. I might really and truly.. you know, LOVE you. I'm not sure if I can tell you though. I cried last night to know I was the one who upset you.. WHY CAN'T I FUCKING CONTROL MY FEELINGS?! My tears leek off my face & I don't want to wipe them away because I know that I'll hate myself after. How does this work? I might really LOVE you, but I have the biggest hatred for myself. Why do I always feel so guilty about my feelings for you? I wish I coudl tell you everything I feel, but I'm scared of the truth. I'm scared of what could happen, but what I'm really scared of is both losing and hurting you.