Foster Care?

                    Okayy, I know this is a really bad thing to sab, BUT.... Honestly, I think it would be better I was in foster care then living here. It's horrible. After summer time, I've hated living here. my dad nearly broke my sister's hand and arm into little peices. He smashed the door on her arm and hand, forcing her out of the room. After he hung up the phone call, he slammed on my sister's room, dragged her out into the hallway. He slapped her across the face.. When I walked out he threatened to kill her. He really does scare me, so much. He told us not to make him mad, because one day he'll go crazy and kill all of us. That it's just a matter of time before he does. Those days in summer, we'd cry in the washroom in fear that we might really die. HA! You wouldn't believe me considering that I'm usually smiling. It's true though. He pushed my mom on the floor when he got mad. The problem is, when she gets scared does this panic attack like thing. She starts laughing like crazy, then she left her body fall. It's weird. He worries about her, because maybe she will die. Who's going to cook for him? -.- He said I'm SOO fecking lazy, why don't I help around? Why can't I ever do ANYTHING? That I never get any exercise. After that he blamed me for HIS stupid mistake, even though he should have listened to what he was suppose to do.How is it fair, that I wake up at 5:30 to go to rugby pratices in the morning, just to have gym right after. Do a bit of academics. Still having to do more after for the phys. ed department & I'm considered LAZY!? He comes home to sleep for like 14 hours straight, then when I take simple one hour quick naps when I'm so tired he says "Why the feck are you sleeping? you don't do anything?" I'm anemic too. So basically, I'm literally dying everyday considering, the following factors. 1) I'm anemic 2) I don't eat alot 3) I'm very sleep deprived 4) How much I work. So like, what the hell? I told him all that nicely, he says "OHH, I work outside everyday, heavy duty. I work out so much." I point out "Okayy? It's your job too. You get paid for that, you know that. Plus, it's only six hours." Okayy, you'd think he'd shut up, no. He replies "So? I still work so hard." I reply "Welll, do you realize I do four hours of work a day?" Ohh, this is the part taht pisses me off the most. "That's not enough." & my mom doesn't say anything, because she agree's with HIM. She yells at me, then I get slapped. Considering she thinks I was disrespecting my elders. They starve me because appearantly, I'm also too fat. If i ignore them it's like "Disrespect?YOU BRAT-SLAPS-" HAPPY HAPPY! Feck this. Thus, I wonder if it really is better to live in foster homes. They don't care. If your cute to them, they'll love you so much.