Slutty Nerd

                   Okayy, okayy. Does it make me a bad person if I kind of want to look slutty, but nerdy? Like, I'm not sure why, but I want have some sex appeal. It sickens me that I look like a little kid. No matter how had I try, I have NO sex appeal what so ever. Unless someone has a pedophile fetish, I'm not sexy. Like I see pictures, of girls with shirt and things, yet when  I attempt to do that myself, I look like a kid. I have the chubby stomach and hips, the round face, wide eyes, chubby nose. This is the odd part, My waist is 26 inch around, BUT around my stomach I'm 36 inches AND around my ass is 40 inches, and my chest is 30 inches.. What the hell is THAT?! I'm like a preteen on the top and a fatty on the bottom. I need to lose my love handles. I need to lose weight all in total. I'm in the rugby team and I take gym. I'm 115 pounds, and 5 feet tall. I HAVE to lose weight. I'm not kidding.